well....
its the end of the year again.....
but this year has to be the best roller coaster year i have ever been on.....
i went from emotional high's to low....
from being a super rich kid for a day to guy who only has 5 sen's after.....
absolutely amazing....
although i could have hoped that somethings didn't happened but then again i'm sure there is a reason why it happened....
2006 has definitely been the best of my life and i will never ever forget it....
it all started pretty badly for me....
in january, i started my college again after 3 months internship....
life was pretty much very predictable at that moment....
but everytime i went to college....
i always see my sayang (that time we were not yet couple and we were not talking to each other because we had some major misunderstandin... and because of that, we hated each other.... but i still loved her... she just didn't know how much i loved her...)
everytime i see her at college... i used to feel so useless....
i always wanted to just go and talk to her and tell her every single thing and hopes that she would just forget the past and see how much i truly love her...
but i always chicken out at the end..... =(
then came one day....
she came and sat on the table with me and edmond (my college best buddy).......
then i remember clearly at that time i was angry with her....
i was thinking after all that she did to me.... she can still have the guts to come and sit down next to me....
then she said she was thirsty... a normal sign that she wants a drink but can't afford....
normally, i would get her a drink or i would share mine....
but after all that she has done to me... after all that she has hurt me soo much and all....
i was angry....
so i told her.... "its raining what..!? drink that water lar...."
yeap... i know.... its the highest level of rudeness....
after that... she straight away left.... and we never talked again for months....
but evertime i see her from far.... my love for her just gets deeper and deeper....
i just didnt know why whenever i want to go and talk to her... i will think of the past and get angry with her..... probably because she never really apologized to me before....
college was fine at that time...... family life was good.... financial life was also good.... no worries...
then came mid year...
Jun 29th, 12.30pm...
i received an email while surfing the net at home....
sorry for the picture quality... didnt want to show the rest of the window, so i had to crop it...
neways, if u cant read this is what she sent me :
Angela : hi...! long time no talk...
so how's life? i'm good....
just drop by to say hi....
well take care...
and good luck with your finals....
cheers....
and this is what i replied...
Jeff : yeaps....
long time no talk....
why ar...?
i thought we were still friends...
hmmm....
final sucks lar....
then after an hour....
Angela : i know....
we are rite....
don't worry la...
no hard feelings??
you nvr say hi..
so whatever la...
but yea..
everythings cool...
take care...chat with you some other time..
chaoz
then i replied:
Jeff : i never say hi....????
wei wei... u know me well right??
im the lanci wan ok.. i never say hi... i wait for "ppl" to say hi to me...
hahahaha....
dun worry... no hard feelings at all as long as we're cool...
p/s: i hate this silent treatment between me and you....
hmmm.... dunno whether things will change or not...
u tell me....
and then from then onwards, i couldn't help myself but to think of her 24/7...
i thought i managed to forget her... but somehow she came back to me....
but it was not all happy happy and we became couple...
no no....!
when she started talking back to me, she had other commitments and i got pissed off again because she started complaining again....
but slowly we became close again.... close friends that is....
and then i went a step too far again.... i disturbed her and hold her hand infront of her friends...
but somehow this time she didn't mind it....
things were going on smoothly except for the part where she has other commitments that made me frustrated with myself....
then one day, i gave up...
just that imagine of seeing her with her commitment just killed me on the spot....
i just gave up....
but somehow, that was the start of everything....
a few days after i gave up...
she sms-ed me...
and i replied in a very "malas nak layan" mood...
we started sms-ing each other in the afternoon all the way until midnight...
and it was only until around 9 or 10something that she actually told me that she is prepared...
she is out of her commitments... and she is really really in love with me....
that day was the happiest day of my life... i can still imagine jumping up and down in my room...
i was soo sooo soooooooooooooooooooo happy....
then came sept 5th....
me and her went to ampang point for a cup of coffee...
she stayed over at my place that day to do her work...
so its was nearly 11pm and she was feeling sleepy ady...
so i took her to ampang point san fransisco coffee...
then i suddenly had the guts to propose to her...
AND I DID IT..!
and she was smilling all the way....
she was in a state of shocked...
even though she knew all the time that i loved her so much....
but she never expected me to propose to her when she was with my old ugly t-shirt and my old faded short pants with her hair all messy and so on.....
i still can remember how my body was shaking at that time...
and it was the first time i actually hold her hand that day....
=)
=)))
now its been about 3months already...
and things have been good...
yes, for sure there are those times where things just get's abit out of control and all...
but the main thing is, we still love each other so much and nothing in this world that can take that away from the both of us....
i love till i die sayang....
and i hope u do the same as well....
well, tomolo's new year's eve and im so sorry sayang because i cannot spend time with u....
i hope sayang that u have a super duper great time where ever u are on new years eve and please take care of urself....
dun get urself in trouble okies....
love u so much.... muacks!!
and to the rest....
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS...>!
